Waiting with Patience

People tell me that I'm a patient person. What they don't know is that inside I'm screaming with impatience! I really don't like waiting for answers. If I get the idea to do something I want to start doing it NOW. If there is something that needs to be done and it hasn't been done yet I want to know WHY.

The problem with this is that none of it is in my control. None of it. Sure I'm in control of my own thoughts and actions but nine times out of ten my day to day life is twisted and turned by the needs of others so I usually don't get to make any sort of schedule for my days. I just learn to go with the flow.

So the holidays are over and school has started and it is the first official Monday of January. The first official week of Jim's retirement. The beginning of another need that I will learn to twist and turn through.

This morning I got up with my head full of thoughts of things that are unanswered. Things that I have to wait for.................: Jim's mom making her next doctor appointment, wanting to go to the gym but waiting for her to call first on the time of her doctor appointment, wondering when or if the part-time jobs Jim applied for will call him, wondering when his first retirement check will be deposited into our account (since is isn't there yet), wondering when his checks due from the sick pay and vacation pay will be deposited into our account (since it isn't there yet), wondering how we'll pay our bills while waiting for these checks, and the biggest one for me that I always have on my mind is when will all my unanswered prayers be answered. Prayers for others that I worry about.

SO, I decided today to get back into the Word of God more and worry and wait less. I am going to focus this month on waiting with patience. To let go, give it all up, and listen for Gods voice.

This morning I read these verses:
Psalms 37:7
Psalms 40:1
Isaiah 40:31
Psalms 27:14
Proverbs 16:32
1 Thessal. 5:14
Romans 2:4
Romans 12:12

After reading these verses we went to the gym together, I walked the dog, I took a hot shower, then I made a fruit smoothie. :)